Sick

I've been sick since Tuesday night and it SUCKS. (yes maria...that word applies here) I've had a scratchy throat-runny nose-pounding headache-cold for way too long. I was sure that by now it would be gone, but I feel just as awful as the very first day. And I havn't seen Nay (roommate) for days cuz she is absolutely determined NOT to get sick. She doesn't even sleep here!! I've been resting and downing Nyquil...that doesn't work...for days now. On Wednesday night, I took Nyquil at 10pm and was still awake at 2am. So I took another dose at 2:30am and was still awake at 5:30am. So I pretty much have been laying be bed this whole week but getting absolutely NO sleep whatsever which is killing me. I totally bombed my math test (i think) cuz I couldn't even see straight. Grrrrrrrrrr........

Last night was Men and Women's night with CRU. We went to a local church and separated genders into 2 groups. Then we played some games and went to some seminars. I chose "Onslought: The world's image vs. God's image" and "Success: The world's definition vs. God's definition". I wasn't feeling very well so afterwards, I was just kinda sitting and taking a breath when Ashley approached me and asked if I would like to go get hot chocolate with her afterwards so we could talk. So we did, and omg I shocked myself. I told her the truth, and overcame a very big fear. I said "yes" to her. Wow.

I'm still madly searching for a job. No luck thus far. I'm sooooo desperate, I'll do anything. I've applied to so many and heard back from none, very discouraging. But I'm not giving up. But it is my main prayer request right now, I NEED A JOB!

I'm gunna go put on a movie and attempt to crash for a few so my head stops throbbing. Over and out.

~sarah lynn, suffering sicky

Same old, Same old

Not much has changed since the last post. I've applied to 6 different jobs and havn't heard back from any of them. Grrr. I'm going for an interview at McDonalds in a half hour...woohoo...

Both of my suitemates are sick with colds, and Nay (roommate) is determined not to get sick. I don't see that really being a possibility since we share a bathroom and don't sleep so our immune systems are crap. Wish us luck.

ummm what else?? Not much really. I miss my puppy insanely and can't wait for belly-bear :-) Ya, my mind is kinda blahed out right now, sorryyyy.

~sarah lynn, blank blockhead

Good and Bad

I'm still loving college, but I struggling to stay strong physically. I've been having an extremely rough time with my past issues and they are catching up to me. My body is very weak right now, and I know I've done this to myself, but that doesn't make it any easier to handle. Anyway, I could use a prayer for the courage to stay strong, and healthy.

Classes are still going well, as are studies. The work load is not too heavy, which I am very thankful for. But still no job found, unfortunately.

I had an amazing night on Saturday. I went to a barn dance with CRU and guess what?? There were horses there!!!! I couldn't stay away from them all night, and talked to the owner for quite a while. She told me that if I ever found my way out there, that she would love for me to come just ride the horses in the ring and through the trails. HOW AMAZING!?! That was definitely a prayer answered. Now I just have to get a car...

Well I have to go get ready to go out. I'm having dinner with a friend at her apartment in a while, then I have Bible Study after that, and a floor meeting after that!! Busy night. Wish me luck!

~sarah lynn, indebted individual

Sleep Deprived

Ok we all know I never slept when I lived at home, but oh my gosh let me just tell you that I have not slept for more than 3 hours a night since I've moved to college. On weekdays, I average about 2 hours and weekends, maybe 3. But that's it. And it's not like I'm up doing things (well sometimes I am....) but mostly I'm just laying in bed staring at the ceiling completely wiped out but unable to put myself to rest. This is NOT how I planned to start my year, but I guess it's the hand I've been dealt. No royal flush here...

I have been very active in CRU (campus crusades for Christ). I went to the weekly CRU meeting last night and Denny's afterword, and hung out with this really cool boy I met, Grant, for a while before I headed back to my room. I go to the weekly Bible studies, led by CRU, and am planning on going to the fall weekend in October. I really like this group of people, and I've made a few friends through it. Ashley, one of the CRU interns, is pretty cool. We met up yesterday and talked for a while. Good times. And I'm going to church with Ashley on Sunday, cuz I didn't really like the church I went to last week, so I'm gunna try another one.

I'm really missing the Library. I miss the people and the books and the work and the sounds and the patrons...annoying and not...I miss shelving and shelf reading and talking and sorting and just everything. I really did LOVE my job, and even more sure now that it's what I want to do with my life. I didn't realize how incredebly passionate and in love with the library I was until I couldn't spend all of my extra time there. Yes, I am 100% sure I want to be a librarian :-)

I got a new phone on Wednesday. My other one kept turning off everytime I closed it, so an upgrade was greatly needed. I got a maroon ENV 2, one I've wanted since I saw it. And I love it just like I thought I would.

I've been running several times a week at the Rec/IM. It's helped release some tension, but has made me even more tired cuz of the whole no sleep thing. I've also become a clean freak! Something I didn't really expect. I make my bed everyday, clean the bathroom every week, sweep the floor, put everything away when I'm done with it, I just like it clean. I know this may sound like normal things for most people, but if you know me, you know that for my whole life, I've lived in a very messy home and was never made to clean anything up. So wanting everything to be clean all the time is so new for me. But I kinda like it...

Ok, well I've got homework to do. Later people...

~sarah lynn, sleepy student

First Bad Day

I'm not having a good day. I'm struggling and in pain and worried and stressed and sad and confused and dizzy. This is the first day that I have felt even an ounce of the pain I thought I'd left behind. This is a moment I would normally call someone and ask for help, I need help right now. It's been a few weeks since I've felt this...I don't know...alone. And it has nothing to do with missing home or people or times or anything like that. It's simply my struggles taking hold of me again. I guess I shouldn't complain, after all, they are MY struggles. Oh well, let the pain go on...

~sarah lynn, struggling sinner

Exhausted

Oh my gosh I am so exhausted. I didn't realize how much time awake I have been spending, and now it's knocking me down. I went to my first party last night and it was fun, but I could definitely feel it when I woke up this morning. I've already had at least 6 hours of homework in 3 days, which caught me by suprise. And let me just tell you, this 3 meal plan a day thing is sooooo much food!! I can't even begin to handle it!! I kinda feel bad just letting a whole meal a day go waste, but I just can't do it. Oh well...

So it's my first official weekend at EMU and so far, so good. I've been doing homework and chatting online and just hanging out, it's nice not to have 5,000 commitments. But on Monday, I'll be dragging myself to the student services hall and will be attempting to get a job. Goodness I need one, and honestly, I miss working. I miss the community and busyness. Hopefully I'll get it soon.

I'm guna go nap now, peace out.

~sarah lynn, restlessly exhausted

First Day of School

I just finished my first day of classes. I have to say that three classes spread throughout the day is not a bad deal. And I totally have enough time to manage everything, with time to spare!! I got a little homework, just reading assignments and materials to get. So amazinggg.

I can't believe how different college is from high school. I can wear what I want, go wherever I want, have my computer in class, stay out as late as i want. I can do anything here. Oh my gosh the wait was sooooo worth it.

I got the cutest note in my mailbox today and it put a HUGE smile on my face :) Thank you, you know who you are.

Anddddd I'm getting a new phone!! Woot! I think I've decided on the Verizon Glyde. Touch screen with a full keyboard slide. Upgrade baby!!

K, I'm out to get my nails done and get more books from Mike's. Peace out.

~sarah lynn, content college student